THE OCEAN AT NIGHT
My dearest, darkest friend
I've come to speak with you again
It's been so long
Since you first knew me
I have gone to the mountains
Far away from the sea
It is you that I come from
It was by you that I grew
From the window
Of the white beach house
I said goodbye to you
I heard you at night
Your pulse hitting the shore
You had pull in the darkness
Your mood was so raw
You waited for me
Beyond the flickering street
In the pale neon glow
In the warm buzzing heat
You held my fear
I felt your pull
I knew you in the daylight
But at night, not at all
In the moonlight you scattered
And a living creature
Needs time alone
I thought of you waiting
How you could swallow me whole
I always held power
In the arms of the water
I bled my heart out
Into the sea
Land lacked your rhythm
Your chaotic freedom
The tension was invisible
Impossible to see
It moved in all directions
Heavy and disconnected
Cluttered with words
No universal currency
You matched my resistance
My reckless persistence
Your tides gave me vision
A way I could see
I dreamt you pulled me under
My ears roared with thunder
I reached for the surface
But you wouldn't let go
I descended into darkness
Held by the stillness
There was no time to grieve
You had swallowed me whole
It was peaceful and still
In the darkness, so beautiful
Under the weight of the water
I began to breath
I felt the fear leave me
It could no longer keep me
The weight of life dropped
To the bottom of the sea
Maybe now I'll remember
When I next hear the thunder
That life is the glow
Of a flickering street
We come here to suffer
To find love, and surrender
We come here to swim
We come here to grieve
We brave the white water
And come up from under
We move through the darkness
And collect bits of light
When the ocean speaks, I listen
In the mountains I still dream of it
The vastness
The openness
Your pulse on the shore
Rivers here run away
But you always ran toward me
In a world full of red
You were my cold, blue song
You delivered me to shore
Like countless times before
It is you who I come from
And to you, I'll return.
