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THE BADLANDS

Where I come from, the canyons are wide

And the sun don't shine on the other side

Our land is so big, our skies are so blue

All of our churches and prisons are full

I come from the country of interstates

Big graveyards of ghost city ruins

Deserts and prairies and mountain towns

Where the cold wind blows right through you

The roads are hard where I come from

You have to get by on a dream

We try our best to hold onto the sky

Our hearts are as strong as our hands

Out here, the masters make the rules

They've pulled up the roots from the dirt

Now every time it rains out here

We sink deeper into the earth

The old gold roads have turned to dust

In our country, we are landless

American dust bowl wasteland blues

Soul rebels born from the badlands

But struggle, it has made us strong

In the mad wind and the rain

Our dreams so vivid, they've come alive

We carry them in our hands

There's a wildfire inside our hearts

And there's a rising wind

The fire we've been holding in

Will burn down everything

Weatherworn, our wills are strong

And greed has made them weak

Their hearts so hard, their hands so soft

With the short-sighted gaze of a thief

The things they rob, they never need

In the badlands, we share the take

The fool who chains his soul to gold

Will be nothing when it all falls away

The hard road tenders up the heart

And builds an iron will

The badlands captives with sacred hearts

Forged from Babylon steel

We cast our anchors to the sky

With not a place to land

Soul rebels with the inner fire

Free-falling through the canyonlands.

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THE KINGFISHER

I walk on the edge

Where the sun hits the water

Where the kingfisher dives

Out past the breakwaters

In my dreams I have always

Breathed under water

When the dam breaks open

And the water runs over

With strongest armor

I protect my heart

The things that I let in

Have gotten me lost

In my dreams I have always

Been locked into battle

The rain as my sword

The storm as my armor

I believed in something

Out on the road

I believed in something

A long time ago

In the halcyon days

The sun hit my feathers

I was the kingfisher

At home in the ether

The approaching storm

Never worried me

From the wind, I am born

Of the rain, I am king

In my dreams I can always

Fight back the wind

The storm keeps me steady

The rain keeps me clean

I'm headed back south

To the land of the pines

To relive my dreams

On the breakwater islands

But dreams are so wild

Too hard to recapture

Still I hate to watch them

As they all come unraveled

I believed in something

Out on the road

I believed in something

A long time ago

I am the kingfisher

Tied to the water

The rain is my sword

The storm is my armor.

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MY FAVORITE GHOST

Your voice, it broke the silence

Where so often I get lost

Purple crocuses are opening

Brushed with springtime frost

Ghosts roam the empty spaces

Where once I used to go

I haunt the lonely ruins with them

To keep from being alone

I have felt the planet shift

Out here on the coast

Staring east across the sea

With all the other ghosts

Your hand broke through the surface

And you reached down to me

You pulled me from canyons

From the bottom of the sea

We both are lonely wanderers

Wounded as we are

Where we're headed, I don't care

I'd follow you anywhere

This world, it sells illusion

So many dead end roads

I feel alive when I'm with you

I forget that I'm a ghost

We'll wait until the wind's just right

On a chilly, late spring morning

The daffodils will all have bloomed

The lilacs will be opening

We'll set sail across the sea

Side by side, two lonely wanderers

When this crazy world has crushed us

And our spirits have been conquered

Who knows if peace exists out there

But I think that we can make it

The substance of a clear, true heart

Can never be contained here

The horizon was empty when I was lost

But when I felt your hand

I saw the sun melt in the sky

In your eyes, the stars did land

We'll start again out there somewhere

Far from any road

The sun will shine, your hand in mine

Two lonely wandering ghosts.

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LIKE HONEY, YOU GET CAUGHT IN IT

I don't know what God is

But I know how it feels to touch it

When time shrinks down to a single point

And like honey, you get caught in it

I could hear the flowers speak

The ants and the honeybees breath

The ravens were the laughing gulls

From my childhood on the beach

The smell of fresh lit cigarettes

Hung softly in the air

I sat and watched the flowers grow

As the hours disappeared

High on the mountain, the cargo planes

Flew over Lost Mile Road

The sound, it shook the cabin floor

And air was thick with ghosts

All points came together

On the forking, branching tree

I could see the banner planes

Flying over the ocean in Surf City

The ones I loved, alive and gone

Were there upon the breeze

Every time I took a breath

They drew closer to me

If this meant I had lost my mind

Then I thanked God for this favor

Time was just a passing storm

And I had lost my anchor

I touched the edge of something big

Like the wings of a butterfly

Traveling on the passing breeze

On a single thread of time

The branches began breaking off

From the sky, silver thread was hanging

I'd pinned my wings to fragile things

And cursed the sky for changing

All was even on that day

The tree, it dripped with light

I spoke to the earthworms, I spoke to the gods

To the forces of darkness and light

Grief had brought me to my knees

And for too long, I had stayed there

Worry was my empty plate

Pain became my master

I don't know what God is

But I know how it feels to touch it

When the flowers bloom, and the breeze is warm

And like honey, you get caught in it.

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BENT BEFORE THE SUN

I can feel it coming

Blowing in from far away

I dig my roots into the mud

To keep from blowing away

An anchor wraps around my feet

I drop into the steel blue sea

I ask God, the hollow sky

To restore my golden wings

The bloodline I follow is tied to the dirt

I speak to God from a hole in the earth

Time grows crooked like an old apple tree

Bent before the sun

My anchor sinks through the mud and the clay

Something approaches from far away

The future is written in the pouring rain

It says the sky will fall again

I am the seafarer lost out at sea

At war with my own destiny

Vultures feast on the hollow sky

My roots run deep in the mud

Strung up in the same old place

Fallen from the same old grace

Thoughts are like prayers that the devil can hear

And God is the hollow sky

Maris Stella, the star of the sea

Please extend your hand to me

I'm caught inside this hollow dream

And the rain, it never stops

Between earth and the sun, my soul has been crossed

My golden wings, I've long since lost

My character chained to the endless dance

Where heaven and earth intersect

I pray to God with earth's mud on my hands

The sky is set to fall again

My soul grows crooked like an old apple tree

Bent before the sun.

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THE KINGDOM OF HIGH WATER

You are the sun

I am the moon

The black river silt

Where the moonflowers bloom

I am the winter

You are the spring

The sweet thrush's voice

When the birds start to sing

You are the wind

When I'm lost in the clouds

The warmth on my skin

When the sun's shining down

You are the song

When I've lost the words

I follow it back

Like a little lost bird

I can feel your sorrow

Like an ancient injury

That is how I found you

That night by the Atlantic Sea

Like the north star, you're my constant

To the world, you bring back color

Remember where we come from

From the kingdom of high water

You burn red just like the sun

As it sets on the indigo sea

Alone in our togetherness

Two long lost souls at sea.

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THE ANGEL NEBULA

Peace flows like a river

That runs away from me

When I close my tired eyes

No colors do I see

The wind came down so hard last night

The color dropped away

It opened up an ancient wound

And stole my breath away

On the day that you were born

The sky lit up in purple

I named you for the angel cloud

After the Pillars of Creation

I close my eyes under the sun

I've run so long, I'm breathless

Static crackles on my skin

My body is electric

When spring returns, new colors come

Brought back by the rain

The daffodils bend toward the sun

The violets come awake

But beauty comes in many forms

And sometimes it is gray

In the tangled strands of dark and light

In sticky, tarry space

On the other side of gray

There are indigos and purples

Like a dream, they pull me deep

I crawl down through a tunnel

I come up where the earth is warm

My body feels electric

The blood is coarsing through my veins

Crackling with static

The maple trees, still bare of leaves

Release their winter sugar

Lilies push up from the mud

And wake the frogs and turtles

They froze beneath the icy lake

When all the world grew still

The sun returns them back to life

An ancient wound is healed

Nothing here is black and white

In all things, there is gray

Nothing here is permanent

And peace, it runs away

I find it in the winter ice

In sticky, tarry space

It's in the color of your eyes

When the sun has pulled away

On the day that you were born

The sky lit up in purple

Glittering with cosmic dust

And flowing like a river.

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RABBIT FEARS THE MOON

When I call your name

I can see the night

I aim my arrow at the moon

Shining hard and bright

Snake consumes the hollow sun

I feel the heavens move

Coyote calls to rabbit

Rabbit fears the moon

No longer do I call my fears

Into the hollow sky

My faith is in the distant stars

In the origins of light

The earth has frozen to my feet

And night is coming down

Rabbit hollers at the moon

Coyote hears a sound

Frozen in the full moon's light

I do not call my fear

Shrouded in the veil of night

A point of light appears

I do not know to whom I speak

Each time that I look up

But if my fears can call the wolves

What would I draw with love

My heart is cracking open

Cosmic light is pouring out

I lift it up to show the moon

Coyote hears a sound

He knows that I am injured

My heart, it has been snared

I cannot find a place to hide

The moonlight lays me bare

I aim my arrow at the moon

Her wounds, the same as mine

She draws the worries of the world

And transforms them into light

She shines down on the lonely earth

On the creatures of the night

She can see our every wound

Fractures mended by her light.

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ANOTHER BLUE EARTH

I dangle my feet off the edge of the world

Where the river plain willow trees weep

Waiting for the end of the world

Where the wild rivers rush to the sea

The mundane and the mythical

How gracefully, they waltz

In the pale neon glow of the amusement parks

Hand in hand on the glittering street

The weather is so wild out here

I draw a shallow breath

There are pink motels and dollar stores

There are palm trees at the end

Maybe I missed it when I was asleep

And this is the afterlife

Maybe the lightning cracked open the sky

And revealed another blue earth

How vividly I've always dreamed

Finding galaxies in one grain of sand

There are sun-bleached shells and cactus flowers

White sand and blue sea at the end

I've had these visions since I was young

Where I find another blue earth

I stand on the dunes and I start to fly

The heavens crash into the earth

I cannot say that I fear the end

'Cause for me, it has already come

A tidal wave washed over me

I drowned the same way I was born

So now this is the afterlife

And I am letting go

Shaking off the fever dream

Looking up to the sun from below

I have learned to breath underwater

For some peace, at long last, I have searched

Another planet has been discovered

Scientists say it looks just like the earth

I dangle my feet off the edge of the world

Where the river plain willow trees weep

Making my peace at the end of the world

Where the wild rivers rush to the sea.

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SPACEMAN

The vampires are coming out tonight

To taste the summer sky

There's something in the darkness

That makes them feel alive

I am just an astronaut

I have no business here

I am always leaving earth

Hoping to be healed

I know you're feeling lonely

For the world is shrinking down

And it can feel peculiar

When you cannot feel the ground

I am just an astronaut

This world is not my home

My nature makes me distant

And leaves you here alone

But gravity won't stick to me

And the earth has bled me dry

Like a feather in the wind

I lift up to the sky

But up here in the darkness

I feel so close to you

You're down there in the summertime

The earth, it looks so blue

We were born from distants stars

From the origins of light

Like wild horses on the earth

Like giants in the sky

I'm searching for our history

In the light of the dying stars

As time goes by, and each one dies

I push further into the dark

At night, we dressed ourselves in black

And dove into the ocean

Those nights, the sky came down so low

We reached right up and touched it

We climbed up on the lifeguard chairs

To be closer to the sky

In space, we were suspended

I could see it in your eyes

On the earth, my eyes have closed

But I have new ones here

They remind me of a summer storm

Dark and silver, gold and clear

In the dark dust of a stellar cradle

Inside the cosmic womb

Your heartbeat pounds just like the waves

On the earth that looks so blue

I wonder where you are down there

On that tiny, spinning dot

I think back to the summertime

I search back through the dark

I hope the light is winning there

And your skin can feel the sun

And when you taste the evening sky

You remember where you're from

You were born from distant stars

From the origins of light

Like a wild horse upon the earth

Like a giant in the sky

I am on a solo quest to the other side

From dust, we are born

Into dust, we are gone

New galaxies born from new eyes.

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THE DOG STAR OF SUMMER

I was born on this island

In the rains and the flood

My eyes are the blue sky

Salt water's my blood

I was born on this island

Where the sun sets in gold

Where my worries drop off

At the edge of the world

I carry the thing

That she gave to me

The feeling of something

Much bigger than me

I need the distance

The big, rolling sky

The peace that I feel

With the sun in my eyes

The waves and the wind

The birds and the sea

Not a soul on this earth

Comes looking for me

When I was young

And we moved away

The dog star of summer

Shined bright on that day

I looked over my shoulder

To send her my love

She said not to cry

But she saw that I was

I dream of the ocean

Reaching for me

I sink to the bottom

And there, I can breath

My home is the island

But there, I can't stay

She is my mother

She is my grave

When I am old

And in the mountains, I die

They'll carry me back

To lay down by her side

My ashes and bones

Will sink into the sea

And the dog star of summer

Will shine on the beach.

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PROOF OF LIGHT

We send to you our deepest love

From the surface of the earth

We who rise like fireflies

Searching in the dark

To cure the sickness of our hearts

We've come to let them open up

But only God knows how it hurts

When the dam becomes the flood

You appear to us as points of light

Dashed across the evening sky

When the thunder shakes beneath our feet

And the sun has turned its back

When fear burns wild inside the blood

And the last lost dream dies in the flood

We offer up our humble hearts

That burn with sacred fire

Uncorrupted light expands

Cast so far, it never ends

We offer up our empty hands

Our unchained spirits, free

Proof of light is all around

It's brightest when the night comes down

Fireflies and shooting stars

Light the noble heart

Each heart on earth was made to break

That is how the light escapes

We find it in no other way

Than searching in the dark.

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A CROW FLIES ABOVE ME

I am a traveler

The sun in my eyes

I chase the horizon

I don't keep the time

I left my old town

Dug out from that hole

Couldn't waste my time learning

What I already know

I follow the sun

As it moves to the west

The sky lifts the weight

The earth sunk in my chest

With the mountains, I dream

With the willows, I cry

The river, it bends

The long road, it winds

All of my bad days

I choked them right down

And buried them deep

In the cold, cold ground

I shook off the ghosts

And the old spiderwebs

A crow flies above me

I speak to the dead

All, it is holy

In the desert out here

Though my bones, they are cold

And my wounds have not healed

I watched as my demons

Came crawling out

Turning back into ashes

Lifting up to the clouds

Mother nature will keep me

And make me feel whole

Her sun will shine down

On my wandering soul

My thoughts, like a river

Will all come unstuck

I won't be afraid anymore

Of the flood

I will follow my heart

And find peace, by and by

With no destination

And the sun in my eyes.

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APPROACHING THE DESERT

I was a lost soul

Asleep on the dry earth

Approaching the desert

My cold bones beneath

I drank of the poison

Enough to reach heaven

Bound by my own rope

And pulled down beneath

I went underground

To sleep with the flowers

To escape the cold winter

And wait for the spring

Under the dirt

The roots look like branches

With no sun to reach for

And freedom to sink

Inside my tomb

I had visions of angels

The fiery eyes

That a madman can see

I sank in my footprints

In the city of ashes

With the rats in the tunnels

I crawled on my knees

I let go of my soul

When I was asleep

While a thousand hands

Reached to bury me

I let go of my soul

And fell to my knees

With no sun to reach for

And freedom to sink

From under the dirt

I reached for the temple

The angels ascended

The slippery ladder

I return with the flowers

With the storms and the thunder

I surrender my exile

And plead for the sun

Where the hard rain falls

The earth is made fertile

'Neath the cold bones of hell

I reached for the sun.

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THE FARAWAY LIGHT WE CAN’T SEE

I sit with my father

Skipping shells in the twilight

When the beach is empty

And the sky is clear

The last oystercatcher

Flies off from the shoreline

The cars on the street

Have all disappeared

The ocean turns silver

When the night comes down

The stars come out

And the wind comes around

We stand on the jetty

In the warm purple twilight

Casting for blackfish

When the world is asleep

My father shines like a faraway star

But this light, he cannot see

Instead, he finds it in the sky

Or as something that was passed down to me

My father's head is in the clouds

He's a traveler just like me

He was wounded in the war

With wounds that most people can't see

We stare too long into the sun

We share the same strange dreams

We can see without looking too far

When the night comes down on the beach

One day, we know, this will all be gone

Like fog rising over the sea

Memories exist, hanging in the air

As invisible things we can see

I used to think there was nothing at all

That remained of us after we died

But now I think that we carry on

As faraway pieces of light

When the storm came, and the night was long

When my sorrow was as big as the sea

A mysterious beacon lit up the night

A faraway light shined on me

When I leave my days behind

I'll exist as a memory

As the purple lightning in the summer sky

And as all of the light we can't see

Where lost souls wander in the night

My light will shine down on the sand

I'll walk with my father in the warm streetlight

The darkness will have no place to land

When the waves pull my body back into the sea

And my bones have turned back to sand

I'll feel myself in the ocean's arms

On the jetty, my father will stand

Life springs up again somewhere

Where my father turns the soil

The warm west wind brings in the spring

The twilight sky is purple

The tourists here will all have gone

The beach, it will be ours again

We'll cast for blackfish when the world is asleep

In the dream that we share with no end

The fog will lift, and the morning star

Will shine on the silvery sea

Me and my father will still exist

As the faraway light we can't see.

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THE DRAGON CALLS ME UNDER

I catch the light in the summertime
That cracks and splits the rumbling sky
Rain pours from the rocky cliffs
And rushes with the rivers

The mountainsides are lush and green
Along the streams, the thrushes sing
The west wind brings the low tide in
The willows touch the river

The summer frogs are beckoning
I lift my arms up, as I spin
I'm dizzy like a butterfly
Pulled into the night

All the world, it is asleep
Walking through an ancient dream
In my dreams, I'm growing fins
And pushing up the river

I push against the water, west
My skin is cold, my hands are webbed
The river lets me take a breath
My blood burns hot like fire

My skin, it shines with silver scales
I kick and thrash my mighty tail
The land, it shrinks; the sea, it swells
I wake the water dragon

His body runs for miles and miles
His song is old, his eyes are wild
He finds me diving in my sleep
And I follow him down

Destruction taught me how to swim
The master passing on his dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world

The fisherman have cast their nests
Pushing up the river, west
The moon is waking from her sleep
Lifting her tired eyes

The sky is filled with butterflies
Their white wings lift the heavy night
The spider weaves her silver web
The thunder shakes the night

My ears roar with a maddening sound
The mighty river holds me down
I sink so far down through the mud
I'm breaking through the surface

The dragon finds me in the stream
By the lightning of a fever dream
He holds a treasure in his chest
Unmatched by any world

I lift my arms up, as I spin
A butterfly caught in the wind
In summer's silver web, I'm caught
The dragon calls me under.

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I REMEMBER THE DIAMOND SKY

I went up to the beach at night

To sleep upon the sand

My dreams, they carried me away

The ocean swallowed land 


I fell like sleeping beauty

To the bottom of the sea

I bit into the apple 

The poison pit of melancholy


I slipped into unconscious flow

I could not fight the ocean 

The undertow, it was so strong

It dragged me across the bottom 


When I was young, I had no fear

I stood upon the dunes 

I called the lightning down to me

When the moon was high and full


At night, I dove into the sea

And there, I danced with God 

I felt the fear stoke in my blood

We crashed against the rocks


Looking up from underneath

I watch the breaking waves 

I sink just like a heavy stone

And God, he looks away


All the world, it is a dream

And the nighttime sky, she carries me 

My mother named me for the night 

When the stars are breaking through


I rise up from the ocean floor

Into the light of day

The pink clouds make me dizzy

For so long, I've been away


I walk the wire between dark and light

And sometimes I fall in

I feel the fear stoke in my blood

I face the cold north wind


I stare out at the fishing boats 

When the waves are breaking tall 

I hear the ocean call to me 

Her undertow is strong


The moonlight soaks into the sand

Dissolving every shadow

Lilith blinks her lonely eyes

And sinks down to the bottom


Looking up from underneath

I remember the diamond sky

A thousand souls have come awake

Shining like stars in the night.

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THE HOLLOW HALLS OF WILD DREAMS

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin 

And the night is filled with dragons 

A solar flare breaks through the clouds 

On the earth, lost souls are searching


There are interstellar cobwebs here

I'm clearing them away

I am on a pilgrimage 

To the other side of space 


Lonely souls, they come here 

To feel weightless again

Thoughts, they can get lost here

Without a place to land


Nothing here can stick to you

There's nothing to want, or to keep

In the tumbling waves, I'm far away

From crazy sorrow's twisted reach


We were born at the edge of time

Where the earth drops off to the sea

We were born at the edge of a storm

On the far side of a dream


Violets quiver under my feet

Wisteria vines choke the trees 

Life is thick and vibrant here

Like sap, it sticks to me


I am getting closer now

I can feel the other side

The diamond sky, it calls to me

I lift further into the night 


A walk with a dragon by my side

Through the hollow halls of wild dreams

Reaching for the edge of light

Where time is a fast-growing tree


Solar flares are breaking through

The river is running wild

Time is looping back again 

To touch the other side


Our souls are sparks of ancient light

Flakes from a faraway sun

I brush away the cosmic web

That the guardian spider has spun


The spider, she has many eyes 

She spirits me away

She spins the seed of every dream

And calls my soul away


The rivers rise; the flood, it comes

The storm has swallowed up the sun

Time grows thick like the trunk of a tree 

The branches break away


My body has turned into dust 

I am back among the stars 

The hollow sky has come alive

With the light of who we are


The weight is dragging on the earth

But I'm at peace in space 

Tonight the walls of dreams wear thin 

I'm spirited away.

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